yes! You need to read the stories posted here- the former director stories, etc. You should notice a theme- and basically, most everyone here felt pretty much like you, if they allowed themselves to get really into the pink fog, like me an dlike many others on this site did. It took me a long time even after I left to admit that I thought it was all a scam. that doesn't mean that I think all the women in MK are scam artists, just some of them are to their own knowledge, but the women are being scammed into believing this pink fairytale. It sounds too good to be true, but we're assured that it really is true, they tell you what it's done for their family, their financial situation, their life, etc, and we believe b/c it's other women, like us, sharing this with us! so we buy it hook line an sinker and we fall right in.
don't beat yourself up. admit to yourself, your family, etc that you have wised up, admit to them how you feel you spent too much time at it, or whatever it is you feel bad about. admit to your husband what you really think of mk- just get it out there. you reallywill feel better.
tell your story on this site- look for introductions of new members here and share with them to help them out- it will help you as well.
yes, it will get better. but you cant keep looking back and beating yourself up. I'm still paying off debt from my MK days, and will be for another year, maybe two- but that's it, I'm getting it paid off and thats the end of the story- I can't keep feeling bad about it.
i sold stuff on ebay, got rid of anything MK related in my house, and that felt good. I got a little money for it all- and hey, used it to make a cc payment---
just keep moving forward. you'velearned something from this, now you can help others.