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« on: October 20, 2006, 08:49:45 AM » |
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and I realized that I was on antidepressants for post-pardom(sp) and had been for a few months, I stayed on the whole 1 1/2 years I was working my MK. I stopped taking them in April  and I came to my senses that it wasn't for me. I had also had it suggested by my director that I might need to get back on them, I know how I feel now... I am not depressed. Anyone have anything similar happen to them? by the way if anyone takes Effexor it is H**L to come off! I was sick for a month! Sick |
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« Reply #1 on: October 20, 2006, 10:08:29 AM » |
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Pinkhugs, I've been on and off antidepressants for 15 years, and I'm only 29...........but to answer your questions, yes, I was taking Wellbutrin XL when I started MK(stress in my job after hurricanes Katrina and Rita), came off for a short while about a month into it, and ended up on Lexapro........which was great for my moods, but made me sick and lifeless.......so after 3 months of that I begged to go back on Wellbutrin.......Dr. okayed it and I lasted 2 more months on that one........started gaining weight and my moods were not always that pleasant. I am convinced that I'm ADD, afterall, I have 4 siblings and they are all ADD, and I have 2 children that are, and a third who is too young to be tested also.......I was a "gifted" child and always got by okay in school so I guess there was no reason to suspect anything when I was young.......except that I've always been quite scatter brained (can't stay on task and memory is a joke). So, I've been off of everything for about 3 weeks (trying it again on my own) and I've been extremely emotional and moody......and my house is a wreck! So I made an appt. with my Doc. and made him listen to everything that was going on and had been for 15 years, LOL. I was really starting to feel like a hypochondriac, but he referred me to a Psychiatrist because he feels that I may be Adult ADD and *get this* Bi-polar--I knew something was going on!!!---my appt. is next week and I can't wait to talk to a knowledgeable professional and try to figure out a course of action--I can't live this way!!!
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« Reply #2 on: October 20, 2006, 10:26:26 AM » |
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Pinkhugs, I've been on and off antidepressants for 15 years, and I'm only 29...........but to answer your questions, yes, I was taking Wellbutrin XL when I started MK(stress in my job after hurricanes Katrina and Rita), came off for a short while about a month into it, and ended up on Lexapro........which was great for my moods, but made me sick and lifeless.......so after 3 months of that I begged to go back on Wellbutrin.......Dr. okayed it and I lasted 2 more months on that one........started gaining weight and my moods were not always that pleasant. I am convinced that I'm ADD, afterall, I have 4 siblings and they are all ADD, and I have 2 children that are, and a third who is too young to be tested also.......I was a "gifted" child and always got by okay in school so I guess there was no reason to suspect anything when I was young.......except that I've always been quite scatter brained (can't stay on task and memory is a joke). So, I've been off of everything for about 3 weeks (trying it again on my own) and I've been extremely emotional and moody......and my house is a wreck! So I made an appt. with my Doc. and made him listen to everything that was going on and had been for 15 years, LOL. I was really starting to feel like a hypochondriac, but he referred me to a Psychiatrist because he feels that I may be Adult ADD and *get this* Bi-polar--I knew something was going on!!!---my appt. is next week and I can't wait to talk to a knowledgeable professional and try to figure out a course of action--I can't live this way!!!
Goodness!  That story sounds so stinkin' familiar! I'm "gifted", scatterbrained, and can't stay on task either. Order? What order? Chaos. That's me. My house is chaos. I'm not Bi-polar though. Treatment resistant depression, that's me. Add ADD, OCD, PTSD, and Anxiety Disorder to the mix... I've given up on the meds, been about two years now. I was dead to the world emotionally and spiritually. Never cried. A zombie. I couldn't live like that, either. I've tried nearly every combination possible--I started 15 years ago too, with Prozac after a stint in a psych hospital thanks to my nsdxh. Gained 25 lbs in a month. Was more suicidal while on Prozac then when I wasn't. Although the combination i was on during my last pregnancy (wow, 7 years ago) made that pregnancy the easiest out of the four (if you don't count the doctor ordered last month of bed-rest due to pneumonia...) in spite of being six years older than the previous one and feeling the age... Giving up on caffeine and even all carbonated drinks (except home-brewed root beer) has helped. Finally getting a kick in the pants and starting to exercise has also helped. I'm still scatterbrained and off-task though. I think dh and kids are just going to have to accept me for who I am in regard to that... Good luck, though! I can totally relate... |
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« Reply #3 on: October 20, 2006, 10:37:09 AM » |
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LauraB, thanks so much for sharing.........It's been a tough few years for me......My oldest 2 children lost their father two years ago (we were not married any longer, but he was a part of my life for so long that I think I def. took it as a loss also), and we have been dealing with the emotions that come along with that loss with our children (I say our, because I am remarried to a WONDERFUL man who is "daddy" to them all). My oldest child ended up in counseling where on top of being diagnosed as ADHD, they say he is ODD (not odd, LOL, but Oppositional Defiant Disorder)--it's a constant battle with him over EVERYTHING!!! I'm sure that has somewhat to do with my mental state.....parenting sure is draining!
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« Reply #4 on: October 20, 2006, 10:40:06 AM » |
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WoW Done! I know that my meds. helped me 100%, I was having suicidal thoughts and the whole 9 yards! I was getting up in the middle of the night and cleaning house! I would go to bed as soon as my husband got home every night and leave the kids for him to deal with. I think some of it runs in my family also, my grandmother is "off" she had been treated with Electric shock therapy when my mom was small. I see a lot of her in my mom, and me. I knew it was time for me to come off because I was getting dizzy and just feeling weird, but my psychiatrist wouldn't take me off, so I did research online and found out the best way to do it own my own. HARD, I was totally addicted, I had to pop open capsules just to get a little in my system while I was weaning myself off. Sick I am 29 too  I just think that my meds helped block(is that the right word for it?) my emotions, I really never got emotional about anything I was a lot more outgoing while on them,no not outgoing I just didn't care what people thought (must be because I was almost high on them) thats why I did ok with my MK. My prayers are with you, I know how hard it is to deal with any mental issues, it has always been something in my family because of my grandmother...my diagnosis is paranoid schitz. just like that movie a beautiful mind. |
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« Reply #5 on: October 20, 2006, 10:48:08 AM » |
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Pinkhugs, thanks so much for sharing........it makes me feel better knowing that I'm not crazy and other people out there are dealing with some of the same stuff......It's hard for me to expain what's going on inside my head to my husband because he has never had any dealings with mental illness at all--no one in his family has ever had any issues--they are all perfectly sane (I can't even imagine how that's possible, but it's true, because I see it). At times, I feel like he thinks I'm making stuff up to get out of doing things like cleaning the house, family activities, etc. But, hopefully the new Doc will have some ideas about how to treat my "condition".
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« Reply #6 on: October 20, 2006, 11:00:02 AM » |
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Done, exactly the same with my dh. I never told him that I was thinking of how to kill myself, he would have flipped out. My brother has some serious issues also anger, and depression. I wanted to tell you and LauraB something that I do that is totally CRAZY maybe you will get a little laugh out of it... when I am out anywhere I can't breath, I mean I hold my breath when people are around me...not just dirty people ALL people.... OH my gosh if Walmart is packed I am about blue when we leave, sometimes I just have to leave because it is so bad.  All my Love and a big ol to both of you!!!! |
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« Reply #7 on: October 20, 2006, 11:16:56 AM » |
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Oh I totally relate! I HATE crowds!!! Hate, hate hate!!! Major panic attacks.  My dh doesn't know what to do with me when I get in those states. He doesn't seem to comprehend how bad it can get... I actually believe my dh is the one with bi-polar disorder so we're a real pair...  LauraB, thanks so much for sharing.........It's been a tough few years for me......My oldest 2 children lost their father two years ago (we were not married any longer, but he was a part of my life for so long that I think I def. took it as a loss also), and we have been dealing with the emotions that come along with that loss with our children (I say our, because I am remarried to a WONDERFUL man who is "daddy" to them all). My oldest child ended up in counseling where on top of being diagnosed as ADHD, they say he is ODD (not odd, LOL, but Oppositional Defiant Disorder)--it's a constant battle with him over EVERYTHING!!! I'm sure that has somewhat to do with my mental state.....parenting sure is draining!
Oh wow... That would be tough. Even more And here I am wishing my nsdxh would've caught a stray bullet in Iraq instead of a *good* person who didn't deserve it.  I know. Pretty bad. "I sorry"...  |
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« Reply #8 on: October 20, 2006, 12:23:54 PM » |
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Thank you, LauraB. I needed that!
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« Reply #9 on: October 20, 2006, 07:31:13 PM » |
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Wow y'all - it's amazing how we find how much we have in common!  I've been suffering (well, not really suffering) from depression since I was about 14. Was on Prozac for a long time, how I've been on Effexor for the past couple of years - my doctor is pretty sure I'll never be able to stop the meds completely. And LB, I've had one panic attack in my life, and it was the scariest thing - my mom gets them all the time and I feel so bad for her because they absolute cripple you sometimes. I am also a "gifted" child - finished high school two years early and got my Bachelor's degree at 19. And done be sorry about the bullet comment. . . If I had a gun, I'd hunt down a few people myself, but God has better plans for them. |
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« Reply #12 on: November 05, 2006, 01:05:28 PM » |
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Wow. Just catching up on some threads and found this.
Add me to the list.
Depression runs in the family and I'm the only one who finally got the treatment needed.
Interesting. Guess that empty feeling leads you to find "something more" to fill it.
I could tell some stories too, but I'm moving on from all that. Let's just say that finding the right drug is a HUGE deal. I feel for people who may have problems and not know to ask about a different med and then they are suffering. Very scary!
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« Reply #13 on: November 05, 2006, 05:09:52 PM » |
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Just wanted to update you ladies on my sessions with the psych............I'M NOT CRAZY!!!! I'm having sessions with him twice a week and have discovered that I have several true disorders that we are working through and trying to find meds that are appropriate. Turns out I have a Depressive disorder, and anxiety disorder, I'm borderline OCD and ODD, Adult ADD and Bi-Polar has not been completely ruled out. We are taking it slow with the meds, making sure one works before starting another-----currently I'm taking Cymbalta for depression (seems to be the miracle drug so far) and I just starting taking Klonipin for anxiety. If these seem to do me good after a few weeks, we'll try an ADD med ontop of it all. Sound like a lot of meds, but I'm just so ready to feel good again!!! it felt so good to sit in front of a Doc. and say "I feel like a hypochondriac". His response....."If you have the presence of mind to think you are one, then you probably are not!" What a relief that was! |
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« Reply #14 on: November 05, 2006, 07:00:31 PM » |
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Oh wow.....just like UYC I was trying to catch up on posts today and ran across this one this evening. My Love goes out to each and every one of you who suffers from depression and other crippling issues. It's not a fun way to live. Depression runs rampant in my husband's family and my husband is a diabetic. Depression and diabetes go hand-in-hand so my husband has been on ADs for about 3 years now. It's done a WORLD of good for him. My 13-year-old daughter has been in therapy for about 6 months and now the therapist thinks she should be placed on ADs too, which scares the crap outta me!! But after speaking with the therapist and my daughter's pediatrician, we all agree that it would be the best thing for her. Now she has to go see a psychiatrist in order to get the prescription. *heavy sigh* It's only going to be for a little while, but it has me extremely concerned for her. Hopefully within the next 9-12 months, she'll be able to control her anger issues better and handle "life" better and she'll be able to go off of them. Here's hoping! to all of you!!! |
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