Awaken, I'm so sorry to hear that you're in a bad emotional state.
But, look what you've already done:
1) Found this forum and realized the value of sharing your experience.
2) Make the decision to return inventory.
3) Talked about your debt and seen that you are soooo not alone in that boat.
4) Remembered your previous sucess with ebay (yay!).
I'd say you're on a definite positive roll

Keep it going.

I don't mean to sound preachy, just sometimes we don't realize all the good stuff we're doing while we're doing it.
